How did I get here?
Saturday the 26th of April, 2008 — RivikahTen years ago, I was 15 years old. I didn’t know what I wanted to be when I grew up, but I’m pretty sure I wouldn’t have envisioned more than a decade more of education in my future. Graduate studies in mathematics weren’t something I could conceive of. I’m not sure what my 15 year old self would have thought of the research portion of what I do these days, but I’m sure she would have been incredulous at the thought that I could be comfortable teaching labs.
So how did I get from there to here?
To be perfectly honest, I’m not entirely sure.
Although I’m sure I couldn’t have envisioned this path when I was 15, it seems like most of the decisions along the way have been obvious ones. Since the math courses that I took in the first year of undergrad were so amazing, it seemed obvious that I would take an ambitious major requiring a large number of math courses. Once I took such an ambitious program it seemed obvious I would do some summer research terms and that I would apply for grad school. It seemed obvious that I would go to the school where Someone was also accepted. All of these steps were the easiest choice. The most obvious one.
The exception is when I first put my foot on this path, the decision to do mathematics as an undergrad. That option was perhaps the least obvious one.
Wednesday the 7th of May, 2008 at 3:50 pm
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Thursday the 8th of May, 2008 at 1:03 pm
I’ve never really been able to let myself just see the path develop before me. I’ve always had to plan and come up with contingencies, etc. So, I envy you in your ability to let life unfold rather than trying to constantly, futilely wrangle it.
Thursday the 8th of May, 2008 at 9:02 pm
this is an interesting post. I too have just following what seemed obvious at the time. How does the saying go, best laid plans?
However, this post leaves me guessing about if you are happy where your life has taken you. I’ll have to read your older post, I guess, to figure this out.
Thursday the 8th of May, 2008 at 9:07 pm
Right now, I’d say my happiness is mixed. I have good days, and I have days where I feel like impending failure. Contented enough overall I guess. Happy enough to keep on the way I’m going anyway.